Thursday, June 06, 2002

Dear God,

I want to thank you for helping me so far this morning. You are always looking out for me, and you never put me in a situation that I cannot handle. You are helping me to face difficult situations with grace, honesty, and dignity.

I have made some big mistakes at my job, mistakes that will affect my career. I have sinned against you, my manager, and others. I am sorry. I haven't taken my work very seriously, and it shows. I've even been told about my behaviour, and yet I haven't changed very much.

Now things are coming to a head, and my position here and possibly with my company is tenuous.

Lord, please change my heart. I have seen this in my character often but have not done much to change it. When I've started a new project, I've said to myself, on this one, I'll be better. Yet I've gone into my old habits.

I need help staying focused, Lord. Even at work, I have many things going through my mind. I sometimes get anxious that I'll forget the important stuff.

I've been foolish, and I've not been a good example of a spiritual professional. I am unorganized, scatterbrained, forgetful.

But I thank you for your blood, Jesus, because by it, I can be clean. I am made new in your sight, and you forgive the guilt of my sin. Your love for me has always been deeper than anything I can imagine, and it's been constant. Your blood, Jesus, continues to purify me.

Lord, I don't understand my behaviour. Help me to manage the weaknesses and accentuate my strengths. I need your help in focusing on the positive aspects of my ADHD, and at the same time doing well with what you've given me, being responsible.

I don't know what all is going to happen today. I want to expect the best, while being prepared for the worst.

Your love keeps me going. Without you, I certainly could not live. I don't see how I ever lived my life without you. Thank you for your constant presence.

Love, your son,
Danny