Saturday, June 08, 2002

Father God,

I am so glad to have the Bible, your message to us in these troubled times. I pray to know it more and more and apply it more to my life. There are so many ideas about how to live, but yours is the only one through which one can truly have fulfillment and peace.

For you created us so that we would seek you out and find you. In your omniscience, you have arranged the times and places where we would live for this very purpose. Knowing you is the best part of my life.

I can so easily see my weaknesses and brood over them, yet you see me as righteous and holy, unblemished - because of the blood of Jesus, which continues to purify me.

For you created my inmost being, you eyes saw my unformed body, and you made me grow inside my mother's womb. Out of something so small, you created me. When I start to think about this, I am in awe of you.

Lord, today I studied out a little bit about the heart. My heart is deceptive, and I need to stay in your word to keep it on track. Even more than that, because my outlook on my life can be so subjective, I need help from other people, who can offer me an objective perspective.

You know all that is going on in my life right now. You know that I'm about to undergo a transition in my job. Right now the future isn't clear to me, but I know from your word that you will always meet my needs. Knowing this is vital because I don't have just myself to take care of, but I also have my wife and daughter.

They are such blessings from you. I can have the roughest of days at work, yet when I arrive home, they greet me with open arms, with unconditional love. I experience your love through them. Awesome!

I need your help today. You know all about how I'm made, and so you know about my mental struggles: ADHD, obsessive compulsive disorder, depression. First of all, it is still so hard for me to talk with others about what's going on underneath without getting emotional. I don't like being emotional to the point of sobbing, because at that point I feel like I'm out of control. And it hurts inside.

Yet I also know that it is worse to keep the feelings stuffed inside. I need your help today to be real about how I'm feeling with others. Right now, I don't feel bad at all, maybe just a little sleepy still, but that's all.

I also need your help in adapting to my ADHD in such a way that I am still responsible. And please, Lord, I pray that you will bring out the best in me. Use me to do your will today. You have given me a gift for encouraging - open up opportunities for me to use it today.

I also pray for those friends and loved ones, who are on my heart. Rob and Dianne - they've gone through so much this past week, and yet they are still faithful. Please help them to get well. I pray also that you will use me and others to lift up their spirits. I know that it is hard for Rob, since he has to take it easy, even though he'd rather be doing other things.

These and others with needs are on my heart. You know what they need. Please supply them with it, to increase their faith, and so that it will result in much praise and thanksgiving!

For all of the leaders, please give them wisdom to know and the integrity to do what is right.

May your blessing be on this prayer and may the meditation of my heart on your word throughout the day, along with how I live please you.

I love you, O Lord my strength!

In Jesus' name,
AMEN!