God,

Hi. Thanks for watching over me as I live. You keep me breathing and so much other stuff like that, and I don't have to worry about it. I praise you for wisdom and understanding, and for showing us the prudent way to live. Thanks also for giving us a free will, so that when we choose you it is out of our own volition. You are so patient, too, God. Your timing is definitely a mystery to me. I long for your deliverance from our present troubles.

Life seems so overwhelming sometimes. I miss being a child, when someone else was responsible for stuff like bills. But then again, I did ask you to give me wisdom. I remember saying that I didn't want to have it so easy, with everything handed to me on a silver platter, so to speak. Can I change my wish? Is it too late?

I dunno, Lord. I struggle with having faith that I can be what you want me to be. Frankly, I'm scared of letting go of the reins. Well, there have been many instances when I've gotten fed up/humbled/etc. and have given up and given in. I need your help, Jesus, in healing the hurts and letting go. I realized this yesterday from my conversation with the doctor. I think I got a lot of stuff pent up inside that I haven't dealt with. I do have problems confronting people without being bent out of shape. You know me, you know my deepest thoughts and desires. That you love me despite the grossness of my soul, it is like... wow!

Being forgiven is so awesome. That you are willing to look beyond my failures, mistakes, and sin to have a relationship with me is so inspiring. I want to write songs to praise you and encourage you. I want to encourage my brothers and sisters and those who need to know you. You've given me words in the past, and I pray that you will inspire me some more.

I love you, God! Thank you Jesus for being you!

Love, your son,
Danny