Monday, July 28, 2003

Dear God,

I feel so upset right now. Frustrated, really. I've been doing what I'm supposed to do in looking for a job. I attended classes, completed the exams, and I'm applying to places. Nothing is happening. Even places that are supposedly hiring are not contacting me.

I'm becoming so adept at filling out applications that I almost have all the required information memorized.

Lord, this doesn't feel very funny to me. I just want to be working somewhere so that I can make an income to help provide for my family. I don't like relying on government assistance and waiting for unemployment checks. I'm tired of this crap.

I feel like such a baby for crying right now. I feel inept at looking for a job. Basically, I need some spiritual help from you right now.

Lord, you are the source of my joy, my happiness, my peace. I know that there is treasure in heaven. I know that you know what is best for me right now. Please help me to be faithful and trust in you and your word.

I'm sorry for ways that I've hurt you with my sins. I want to change and be different, and I want this to be more than just lip service. Please change my character and make me more like your son Jesus.

Help me to not act impulsively to harm myself as I feel the temptation to do that right now. I want some type of gratification to replace the emotional hurt I feel right now. May you fill up what is lacking in my heart.

Thank you for giving me peace, clarity of mind, and the heart to persevere. I know that I'm not alone; help me to encourage others.

I love you God. I feel much better for praying to you.

Your son,
Danny