Dear God,

I've been having such a hard time connecting with you. I haven't prayed to you, poured out my heart to you, really surrendered myself to you in such a long time.

Even now, writing this letter, I feel tempted to hold back because I know that other people may read it. I'm tempted to edit what I write or write something just because I know that others are reading it.

Lord, I have been such a sinful man, living for myself and not for Jesus. I have lost the passion and zeal for you that I once had.

I want to change. Please change me. Renew my heart and my desire. Help me to manage the mental stuff I deal with so that it won't be a hindrance to me.

Help me to open up with other spiritual men. Help me to grow in trust, Lord.

In Jesus' name,
Amen