Dear God,

Wow. My heart feels so troubled right now. Yet I cling to you. I just learned that we are being sued by a hospital for medical bills we have been unable to pay. I am tempted to question why you are allowing this to happen. Then I reconsider, knowing that you know what we can handle. Lord, it looks like we may have to file bancruptcy, because we've been unable to pay our debts.

Even now, I don't have any money coming in to pay for basic necessities. I need to get the paperwork turned in so that we can get some food stamps. I feel so frustrated at having to rely on the government. The red tape is smothering! The complexity of it all is overwhelming and depresses me.

God, I've never been this way before, and I'm uneasy about what lies ahead. Okay, I'll be honest: I'm scared. I don't want my family to be homeless and reliant upon others for basic needs. I feel like we should be able to take care of all of that ourselves.

What a mess! I am encouraged that I've had a little bit of web design/web development business, but it's nowhere near enough to make a living off of.

Lord, I don't want to be responsible. I guess that's it. I want things to be the way they were for us over a year ago, when I had a good-paying job, with benefits. It seemed that things were a lot easier back then. I feel like we've been in so much trouble since then.

God, please help me to have a godly heart about all of this. I don't want to be here right now, and I am still struggling with it. Please help my heart to get where it needs to be.

It's hard for me to have hope right now, when all I see it the picture getting bleaker and bleaker. I know I have a hope in heaven, that's for sure. But as for life here, it sure doesn't seem good right now.

Thank you for hearing this prayer.

In Jesus' name,
AMEN